Salam,
You know I have to tell you, I just cant get over this trip. Its left such deep impressions on me that I feel completely changed from inside. But thats not why I’m writing this post. I wanted to tell you something about me.
I’m a very unorganized person with ambition and high hopes. I’m a bit smart so I got away with this non committed attitude during the early years of my life, but since I’ve got a family, I’ve realized that If I don’t organize myself, I’ll end up in a mess so deep, its not even funny.
Already things have started to crack up on me, with everyone around me screaming for attention, pressures of work, studies to carry on with, wife, kids, friends, masjid, halqa, meditation.
I have to step up to the challenges right now, and respond to them by improving myself, I have the resolve, I have my inspirations, but I just HAVE to cut down the time I spend in front of TV and these gadgets I’ve gotten so much used to.
Please pray for me guys, I want to be a better person. I just need to work hard for it consistently, until the good habits become a part of my character.
Wassalam,
hafizjee
hafizjee